trust
i have a question…have you ever felt hopeless?how about helpless?
when your back is againts the wall, it’s even harder
just to tell you hang in there, I could tell you I had
been through many instance when my back was againts
the wall, I felt like the world is crumbling down on
me,and there is no way out, I didn’t know what to do.
It’s good that at that time I have a book about
positive thinking and I just recalled how this jewish
guy on a concentration camp was able to survive when
he knew anytime he could be next in the gas chamber,
out of luck he was spared from the gas chamber but all
his family, friends and those he knew perished. Alll
he could think was why me? Why he was spared and yet
continue to suffer all his losses. I can’t remember if
somebody told him but the message he got was ” THERE
MUST BE A PURPOSE IN ALL OF THIS” I you think about
it, nothing in this world happens without God’s
permission, even tragedies. It’s hard to imagine a
loving Father would allow Sept 11 terrorist attack, or
Hiroshima and Nagasaki Atomic bombing, or the
annihilation of 12 million Jews etc.. Throughout the
years we just learn to “let go and let God” Because no
matter what He is always in control, in the grand
scheme of life’s intricasies or even in small things
that happens in the smallest cells of our bodies,
everything seems to move with order. Might be
difficult for you to understand. God is to be
trusted. He created us, He knows the number of our
hair, He knew our problems even before we approach
Him, for sure He has a plan, we only have to trust
Him. He will continue to cleanse and purify us, with
pain, suffering, frustration, but on the other side He
gives us graces to over come them, makes us stronger
when another one comes along. In the end our only goal
in this life is to be with Him as a citizen of Heaven!
Where all tears will be wiped away, no more pain, no
more tooth aches, no need to go to work, no need to
pay bills, no need to worry about cholesterols and
suiside bombers! But in the meantime He is pruning us
of all our imperfections, teaching us how to be strong
in moments of trials. The bigger reward is ahead of
us, just persevere, trust, pray for strenght and
wisdom. You don’t even have to ask for material wealth
because He already said it ” Love me with all your
heart, all your soul, all your strenght and all of
these will be added unto you”
hahaha.. why am i talking like this? probably, if you knew
me from head to foot… you would know… haaaayyyy…
to all my co-helpdesk… hang on… let’s just trust God
and let him lead then way… cast all your burdens upon him
and he will carry you like the story “foot prints on the sand”
you said, why i’m so clueless, tahimik when i used to be
very talkative and toxic you guys all the time… well, that’s because
on my age, i’ve encounter almost 90% of total frustration, devastation,
and everything… my life is an open book… but there are times like this
that i feel like giving up… tired, loosing batteries… asking him a favor
for a vication leave with all of these hehehe, but then again if we loose something
we gain more than that. But loosing my mom wont gain me much, she’s my everything.
and this trial is just a pice of cake compered with all circumstances that i’ve
encounter.however, this peice of cake that we’re talking about is the one making me
very very weak.. very very ill, just like ballon full of air. if you added just a single
amount of air, that small amout would be the cause of pop-out. you know what i’m saying.
whooowwww.. whatever… i love you guys.. i love you so much. once i’ve told you that
i don’t want to be so close to this group. because i’m afraid that time would came and
it would definitely hard for me to let you go. loose almost all my friends here. and i miss
them so much. i choose to stay and be loyal to this company. that loyalty has been tested
already.i look up to our trusted OIC’s, TL’s and OM’s.. Let’s pray and talked to God. trust
him… but whatever you decide to do, just always remember that we’re team, we’re friends..
we’re family.
